Update.... Didn't go on a date with Douchebag Doug last week. Turns out he's a dumbfuck. He called me fat. K bye.
But, I did go on a date tonight. And I did have a good time. He's friends with my cousin and he's been wanting to hang out since August. We went to dinner and had coffee afterwards and I really enjoyed my time with him.
But the reason I'm posting tonight is the fact that I feel a wall being put up. Maybe it's a good thing, but it's so unlike me... I'm normally so giddy and excited after a good date or something. But I'm not even remotely like that. Yeah, I want to hang out again and maybe things will turn out good, but I am turning so pessimistic.
All I can think of with guys is that they just don't like me or they don't want me. Some kind of factor is in the way that makes me so not girlfriend material. The way I look? Maybe I laugh too loud? I'm too short? I remind them of their ex, maybe?
I'm just going to get hurt, so why even try? Why even get excited about something that isn't going to happen?
But, I did go on a date tonight. And I did have a good time. He's friends with my cousin and he's been wanting to hang out since August. We went to dinner and had coffee afterwards and I really enjoyed my time with him.
But the reason I'm posting tonight is the fact that I feel a wall being put up. Maybe it's a good thing, but it's so unlike me... I'm normally so giddy and excited after a good date or something. But I'm not even remotely like that. Yeah, I want to hang out again and maybe things will turn out good, but I am turning so pessimistic.
All I can think of with guys is that they just don't like me or they don't want me. Some kind of factor is in the way that makes me so not girlfriend material. The way I look? Maybe I laugh too loud? I'm too short? I remind them of their ex, maybe?
I'm just going to get hurt, so why even try? Why even get excited about something that isn't going to happen?
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