Dear ex-boyfriend,
Let me start off by saying this is not a hate letter, but more of a way for me to tell you exactly what is on my mind.
It's been one year and three days since I left you. But don't let that date fool you into thinking I have not thought of you. Each day I wondered what you were doing, if you still thought about me, and if you even have any remorse of the hurt you've put onto me. I've even prayed for you these past twelve months; for your healing, for your happiness, and for you to find somebody good for you.
We have argued, we have yelled at each other... I have even gotten to the point where I have screamed at you. I'm sorry for my impatience. I'm sorry that I couldn't bring you true happiness. I'm sorry that I wound up sleeping with somebody you were close to after we ended things for good.
I have made a lot of mistakes in my life, especially during my four years with you. But let me tell you the things I don't regret.
I don't regret loving you.
I don't regret falling in love with you.
I don't regret giving you a second chance. I do, however, regret giving you a third, fourth, fifth, and sixth chance.
I don't regret leaving you.
I don't regret not speaking to you for the past year.
You have recently been broken up with by your new ex-girlfriend, who, might I add, I hate. And, honestly, I'm glad she left you because she is no good anyways and I know you can do better. Now, I noticed you have followed me on Twitter and Instagram, and now you're sending me selfies on Snapchat.
I don't know what kind of ploy this is... Some kind of hidden plan to get back into my life again, allow us to talk as "friends" or whatever it may be. But let me make myself clear: it is not going to work; for a number of reasons:
Let me start off by saying this is not a hate letter, but more of a way for me to tell you exactly what is on my mind.
It's been one year and three days since I left you. But don't let that date fool you into thinking I have not thought of you. Each day I wondered what you were doing, if you still thought about me, and if you even have any remorse of the hurt you've put onto me. I've even prayed for you these past twelve months; for your healing, for your happiness, and for you to find somebody good for you.
We have argued, we have yelled at each other... I have even gotten to the point where I have screamed at you. I'm sorry for my impatience. I'm sorry that I couldn't bring you true happiness. I'm sorry that I wound up sleeping with somebody you were close to after we ended things for good.
I have made a lot of mistakes in my life, especially during my four years with you. But let me tell you the things I don't regret.
I don't regret loving you.
I don't regret falling in love with you.
I don't regret giving you a second chance. I do, however, regret giving you a third, fourth, fifth, and sixth chance.
I don't regret leaving you.
I don't regret not speaking to you for the past year.
You have recently been broken up with by your new ex-girlfriend, who, might I add, I hate. And, honestly, I'm glad she left you because she is no good anyways and I know you can do better. Now, I noticed you have followed me on Twitter and Instagram, and now you're sending me selfies on Snapchat.
I don't know what kind of ploy this is... Some kind of hidden plan to get back into my life again, allow us to talk as "friends" or whatever it may be. But let me make myself clear: it is not going to work; for a number of reasons:
- I love somebody else now. He is wonderful; mature, fun, hilarious, and quite the gentleman. He makes me feel worthy of being loved, and makes me want to love again. After you, I dated a few guys and none of them worked out. Just as I was giving up, this one came into my life and changed it.
- Not to be totally evil, but you suck. You're not a nice person. You're judgmental, materialistic, opinionated, and self-centered. Over the past year, I made it a vow to surround myself with positivity. Putting a negative person back into my life just isn't a good idea.
- We can't be friends. Ever. It just won't work, so don't try it. You don't just go from being in love with a person to not speaking for a year to being friends. No, we cannot casually get coffee or dinner. No, we cannot be Snapchat BFFs.
So, ex-boyfriend, lastly, I want to say thank you. Thank you for teaching me what love should and shouldn't feel like. You've allowed me to see both what I do deserve and what I don't, because you have given me both of those feelings at least once.
I hope you find happiness and love, because everybody deserves that. But it won't be with me.
Signed,
Your ex-girlfriend
